CNY is coming to the end soon
and my school day was started few days ago
my last last semester perhaps?
A very different sem breaks
Every sem breaks I will definitely realize something that could able to make me strong
The previous sem breaks, I lost two of my lovely family within each sem breaks
It's inspiring and I swear I will treasure everything that I POSSESS right now..
FAMILIES, FRIENDS, LOVES AND DREAMSS...
I'd planned everything for this year when 2014 was coming
but now it has been changed , so glad it wasn't too late..
I was planned to continue my degree course and be a freelance wedding planner like what I am doing right now.. Because my parents hope I could continue my study as I'm still young
and yes, of course I know study is not a barrier for me, I could continue it without any hesitation as my result was maintained at the levels that I always look for
Undeniably, It was tough and suffocating while handling with job and study at the same time especially when all things came together..It's even worsen when all things combine with the relationship. The time I was like WHAT THE HELL happened recently.. Nobody will ever know about the difficulties of handling with all those stuff. Now , I had already went through it by my own, there's still many out there which are much harder than expected, sometimes even out of our control.. and I will always get ready for it ..
I thought I will be continued the multitasking habit throughout the next two years, and seriously I had prepared for it..
However, it has been changed, I chose to work first before going for further study
很突然的一个转弯
很庆幸
还来得及 : )
其实 也不算是改变 或许心底原有的计划 就是这样
但我知道家人对我有期望
也认真的讨论过 我能继续选择学业， 但不能阻止我的事业 我的梦想
曾经的争执，妥协，让我知道 这简单的支持 对我来说 是动力，是力量
我原以为 就这样 能满足家人 同时 我能为自已坚持
所以一直都不看其他的方向
Until
That day, I met an uncle who is the one that I trust and respect the most,
He advised me and we chat so much
What he said that is what I actually think about
Bcuz of my study option. I not dare to think about WORK FIRST in my mind,
I know my parents won't allow me and for sure they may feel unhappy with it
Bcuz they will think that, we will work for the rest of our entire life, don't afraid there's no job for you
But my opinion was, CHANCES won't always being with you and get ready for you
Why don't we work first by creating the chances for the rest of our life?
People may seeking for the jobs and feel lost about their future after graduate,
Why don't grab the time of figure out what you're actually want and go directly for it?
YES, you mind fear, you mind think it's ridiculous, you mind wonder and struggle about your unpredictable future, but WHY don't learning and conquer the fearness, uncertainty in your life? Move forward, you would only know what you're exactly pursue for..
I mean if you knew what you want in your future yet afraid to step forward
AND YESSS, I'M READY FOR IT!! IT HAS ALWAYS BEEN!
I discussed with my parents and they let me to make the option
Tell you frankly, seriously I'm freaking afraid of stepping forward to the new environment and everything like start from origin, strange people, strange environment..
I know it's unavoidable, bcuz it's a part of life..
Seriously, oversea minded still in my mind, I hope could pursue my dream from study abroad
and I will make it as a new target and motivation right now :)
Study is a good option to get a better job in future
That's y I still can't make a decision before
After a deep consideration,
I knew for me, experience is much more important instead of the certificate
Heard that most of you are going further for your study
Seriously, I still have kind of feeling to continue,
Yet, I will bless all of you :)
Hopefully we all could have a better life in future
Because I LOVE to listen different successful story from different people in their life :)
如果说还放不下
是不是
就还有机会
做了这行
脑里其实有很多点子
其实我害怕
会不会等你出现的时候
其实已经用完了
*最大的遗憾， 不是错过了最好的人，而是当你遇见更好的人时，却已经把最好的自已用完了*
我明白了，
有些喜欢 是没有结果的
有些执著 就只因为舍不得放下
有些在乎 或许就仅仅是最简单的安慰
我一向都有自已的原则
这原则 不是不让自已吃亏 而是在每一次自已吃亏的时候 还能坚定的走下去
而我的原则 会因一直在让我成长的人 事 物 而改变
或许
人们总认为
为对方而改变，就会失去了原有的自已
而我觉得
这改变， 往往能在迷茫中找到自已
还是会想念
你过得好就好 :)
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