Friday, January 11, 2013

Praying hard for everything :) (96)


A lonely night again


It's just so sad when I getting a reject call
why? I shouldn't care so much right?


Having exam this coming Sunday
It's my last wedding planner exam
Everyone is getting back their hometown
Again, staying alone at here
So what? I get used of it over hundred time I guess? lol

Seriously, being  alone would make you think everything deeply ,influence your mood
Do you ever having meal alone?
Do you ever feel strange and scare while you had no choice to go through it?
Do you ever need help but no one could succeed to do that for u ? 
Do you ever being alone in a crowded party night?
Do you ever watch a romantic movie alone in  cinema?
Do you ever being alone in an empty house?
Yes, I did!
There are just so many things that have to go through by our own
 But, sometimes really hate of it, again, I had no choice

I need a person who really know me and would be there wherever I been
I need a person who willing to do everything for me
Yet, there's nobody would do that
Perhaps I'm over pretending myself from letting others  go into my world

Sometimes, I'm forced to make trouble to others .
Yes, I admitted I'm a trouble maker
I don't really like to count on anyone
I don't like to do anything by seeing someone faces
I don't like to judge by others before they understand everything about me
I don't like to receive any bad comments while I don't think that I had did something wrong
I don't like to say  IS OKAY ,NVM in over again and again while I'm truly not okay
Yet, I failed to stop it..



Well,
Pray hard for me, hopefully I would pass my exam
Last paper of this course
I would be an officially wedding planner !
there are just so many detail things that I have to touch up
I'm worried about how if I screw up everything?
Would I break down?
Perhaps had a very big expectation and seriously I hate disappointed
I  feel enough of it

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